It all started my senior year of college when I got hooked on hot yoga. I felt so much lighter amidst personal confusion, excessive emails, and the overwhelming anxiety of “what are you going to do with your life.” It was an alternative way for me to check out instead of hitting the bars and taking a shot of tequila… Though I still love tequila. I learned to appreciate slowing down. The most important part of my day was no longer the success of an Instagram post, but the rest between two deep intentional breaths.
And then I graduated. I went on to teach in a low-income community with a program called Teach For America. Though the program was incredible, some of the places where I was located left me in some seriously traumatic and compromising situations. The pressure was intense, my mental and physical health declined rapidly, so I stopped…
We are all presented with a choice: evolve or remain. The choice is yours.
I flew to Bali, Indonesia by myself for some profound soul-searching and a yoga certification. I didn’t have a ton of knowledge, but I knew that I felt full, healthy, and centered when I was practicing and meditating. It was perfect… Right out of a novel. Everything I wanted and more. After a month or so of cleansing and ritual, I came back to the states and accepted a corporate job in sales at Groupon headquarters in Chicago.
Everything boils down to Love and Fear: Is what you are saying coming from a place of love or fear? Are you pursuing an opportunity because of love or fear?
I loved the job at first, but after six months I felt myself slipping again. Falling into negative thought patterns, searching for love from people instead of myself. That feeling of emptiness and discomfort just hovered constantly. I became what many would call mentally ill. This took me to 4 months of therapy. Technically it was called partial hospitalization. I had a lot to work through and this was the perfect place. They were very heavy on exposure therapy and mindfulness. Yet again, the holistic world began to transform my life. All the while I was infrequently practicing but craving more, ignoring my intuition. After the conclusion of the program, I decided to move back to Kansas City to spring into a fresh start. I took a job at a non-profit working with kids who suffered from severe mental health, neglect, etc. I knew it wasn’t forever, but it was perfect for now. Though my health was at a much better place, I was encouraged by a friend to see a woman in Kansas City who was a Reiki Master.
So often we are using our bodies merely to transport our brains from one place to the next. It is imperative that we explore the most beautiful instrument that we poses: our body.
Reiki… that is a weird word. How do you even pronounce it? It was definitely a little far-fetched. However, my friend and I have shared many seasons of life and I trust her judgment, so I went. It changed EVERYTHING. It wasn’t crazy or trippy like I expected, but cleansing and refreshing.
Reiki allows you to get out of your head by getting into it and rewiring your mental computer.
I felt like I was nudged not by my healer, but by myself to pursue what I have always been drawn to: healing and connection. When I help others heal themselves, they in turn heal me. It finally hit me that I could literally do whatever I wanted with my life. I felt permission from the confidence and myself to do so. After the first session, I was in deep. I rapidly began seeing signs that this was my path: helping others develop themselves, healing through touch, moving our bodies, creativity. And ever since then it has just snowballed.
A few different descriptions of Reiki…
- Reiki is a Japanese stress reduction technique that promotes the body’s relaxation response & natural healing ability. Reiki dissolves the illusions of fear and empowers your soul to reveal your loving and authentic truth. Filling your entire being with love and peace so that you may overcome obstacles.
- Reiki is a healing technique based on the principle that the therapist can channel energy into the patient by means of touch, to activate the natural healing processes of the patient’s body and restore physical and emotional well-being.
- Reiki is an energy healing method that is done by placing the hands in a series of postures over or slightly above the body. Ex: when someone gives you a hug, oxytocin levels increase and serotonin increases. Intentional safe touch. Very similar to the chemical brain response when Reiki is administered.
All of my Reiki certifications, picking up yoga classes, working with clients, and doing what I love. It has all come full circle. I now teach an average of 15 yoga classes a week (including privates), attune Reiki students, take a small amount of individuals on a 3 month journey of personal development, and hold healing sessions. I am off the mental health medication that I was told I would be on until the day I die. I sleep through the night. I am not scared to be alone in my head. Most importantly, I feel purposeful, I am connected, and I am healthy. I feel it is my duty to share with others what so drastically flipped my life upside down.
My business will bring a world with connection to life… A world not run by electronics, likes, and Photoshop. A world where your love for yourself is not determined by the love given to you by others. A world that is transparent. A world that loves each other SO HARD! A world built on relationships, love, and light. Expressing light, discovering light, and seeing the light in each other.
I am standing for unity, breath, self-love, deep connection, faith, freedom, creativity, and acceptance.
We are divine atoms that exploded from the stars and we all deserve to feel that way.
– told to TSO